if i could sing..

..i think slow dancing in a burning room would be the first song i'd cover. i've loved this song since i first heard it ages and ages and ages ago. it's beautiful (:

possibly my favourite john mayer track. here are three little videos:

- the original (live but not with lame amounts of screaming),

- a gabe bondoc (who is amazing) cover, and

- a dance.

enjoy guys.

Xx.

"he he he he he he"

Xx.

ps. i didn't really dye my hair (:

my hairdresser went a tad mental ><

i'm not sure whether i love it or hate it.. yet.

Xx.

a wish for all those drunk idiots in your life.

as seen in the "my received files" folder on my laptop. courtesy of the unnamed buddy =p

hope you guys are well -staying safe and all!

Xx.

tres busy.

my life is getting really, really busy so i'm going to let you guys know that i will be blogging less frequently.

do not hate, hating is for losers.

Xx.

alright, it's now time for uni. farewell (:

robpat, models and jen.

i'm not a fan -i liked cedric diggory. i don't like robpat -especially now that he's come out with this. he seems like a bit of a jerk, is it any wonder no one wants to date him?

in other news, this girl here looks pretty damn sick if you ask me.

poor thing doesn't get fed ):

all jokes aside though, i saw jen jen today and it is my belief that she vicariously lives her life through me. but i love her anyway (:

that's it for now.

Xx.

EVD anyone?

Howdy readers!

So, not much has happened between last night and now but I feel like writing something. Currently, I've no idea exactly what I want to write, so I shall ramble.

This is like so weird. You need to give me a clu so I won't have to leave it to beaver who's already on the brink of extinction according to the princess diaries.

Have any of you ever watched Brink? Jen Jen, let's have a movie night where we just watch Brink. Yes, just Brink. Over and over and over again.

Alright, this post is too pointless so I'll stop wasting wonderful online space now!

Take care of yourselves!

Xx.

no hidden meanings intended (seriously, i swear)

i've loved this song ever since i first heard it ageeees ago. HOWEVER, this post has nothing to do with the song (funny that =p). i just saw it on this blog here. i think the clip is wonderful (:
sometimes i wish i were creative and savvy enough to create stuff like this.. other times, i just admire the work other's create!

this will be quick because i have an assignment (or three)

howdy readers!

how's life whereever you are? good? hopefully it's good (: hopefully it's so good it's making you smile (:

i've just finished installing RORB (rainfall-runoff model) for a catchment modelling assignment. before i start working on the not so wonderful, sort of awesome assignment i thought i'd give you guys a brief (ha, let's see how brief it is =p) update of what's been happening in my life. care to be bored? well, then read on..

monday, monday, monday. i hung out with yasa, garth, g and max most of the day (late to late afternoon -daytime). it was fun. weird questions were asked. weird fantasies were shared. i laughed.. a lot.

anyhow, getting a bit off topic here.. soo monday nights are pretty lame for me. last monday was great because miguel gave me a lift home after class (: this monday however, not so great. i was on my way home, minding my own business when *bang* we arrived at a dodgy train station (shall not be mentioned here -just know that it was approximately 40minutes into my trip -on a slow, slow train). now, this dodgy train station is known as being pretty darn dodgy. yes, dodgy. suss. weird. filled with psychos and losers and downright bums. get the picture? well, it's definately not a station i'd like to be alone at (moreso at night than in the day). alright? good.

i was alone. on the train with some other people -but noone i knew (therefore alone). we arrived at the station and when the doors opened, we could hear raised voices. before i knew what was going on, a group of (scary) people jumped on the train and they were fighting -not just verbally but physically fighting! gosh i got so freaked out i actually got out of my (relatively) warm, (somewhat) comfortable seat and retreated to the back of the carriage. there was blood. yucky, yucky blood. there were also transit officers and cops who broke up the fight and told us that we would have to wait for the next train -the intercity train. it was cold, i was lonely, grumpy and scared. i also got home late. super late. it really wasn't fair. but yes, i witnessed a fight with blood. blood, blood, blood. freaky stuff!

oh, to get rid of blood, APPARENTLY it's sufficient if you pour a little bit of that dettol hand sanitiser over it... apparently -according to the cop/transit officer.

ick.

today was long. super, super long. i was at work all day -by all day, i mean longer than i'm ever at uni anymore! i was at work at 8:30 in the morning and by 8:40 i was getting prepared to attend meetings and training sessions. ahh i feel like i'm totally part of the organisation now =p, too bad i'm not getting paid ):! haha. anyhow, i had a short lunch break in which i travelled over to the plaza for a whole half hour (of the 45minutes that were designated) and bought a pair of work pants (FINALLY.. pants that actually fit!). it made me smile (: ^^ they're grey, grey, grey and i would take a photo but they're in my living room and i'm inside my room and it's finally starting to feel warm(ish) -so i shall not! wheee. after our wonderful meetings and training sessions finished, i spent half an hour with the other youngin (he's about 4-6 years older than me) "networking". it was good to talk to him and i found out that he's pretty close mates with one of my friend's cousins (who i happen to know =D). it was awesome and he invited me out with them next weekend! i probably won't go though, no thanks to thesis. urgh -thesis.

after my little "networking" session, my industry supervisor decided that she wanted to talk to me about my catchment model and part of my thesis write up. we talked for almost three hours -and i found out so much about her life.. nothing that i will share here because it's her life and not mine =p anyway, she's pretty cool and the thesis is finally getting somewhere (ah, it's about time).

okay.

lots of rambling.

super, super sorry guys.

stay safe and amazing!

Xx.

ps. hi jase! start blogging again =p

pps. marcus, that wasn't me on the motorscooter -i just took the photo =p (fluke shot)!

help support the raccoon

Are you on Twitter? Then click away to Chester's (raccoon boy) Twitter [here] and be awesome and support his wonderful cause [this].

Seriously, who would want that whole lot of cholesterol (or whatever it is??) inside of them?! Honestly though. Yuck.

So yes, help support mister raccoon boy (:

redirection

we took some shots today and you can view them here. my net is far too slow to upload them all (approximately 1000) so have these three =p

hope you enjoy them!

10:46pm and i'm wrecked..

goodnight awesome online world (:

Xx.

why is it so cold? +my answer

WHY, WHY, WHY?!

seriously, it's freezing. cold down to the bonneeees.

totally uncool if you ask me. i can't wait for the warmth to come back!

oh and my favourite day of the week is saturday since it's the only REAL day we don't have to be at uni/work etc. and have the entire day with family and/or friends (: also, the fear of work the next day (like with sunday) isn't there.

i guess my second favourite day would have to be friday though. why? because work/uni all day and have some good old fun at night (:

alright, i'm off to hang out with ishan before he leaves of the netherlands!

stay awesome guys!

Xx.

spot the difference

can ANYONE else see ANY similarities what so ever? obviously the one on the left is FAR better looking (he looks about 90% friendlier!)... but come on -there are definately some similarities? maybe not. the longer i look at the images, the less the old man looks like jase.

bugger.

ps. neil, you're a bum. i like the brightness of those shoes but i've had two comments (one on the post and the other through msn) saying those shoes suck. fine, i'll stick to simple shoes (:

deck the halls with bells (or is it balls?) of volley.

tra la la la la la la la la.

[i'm talking about dunlop volleys -see image somewhere in this post!]

i need your help guys!

which colour combination is the best (do not say white/pink because your vote will be counted as redundant if you do)?

i think i like the yellow ones but they remind me of a friend who had blue shoes with yellow laces (or something along those lines?) and i'm not sure i want to think of him every time i see my shoes.. i like the green and pink too but they make me want to eat lime flavoured candy. the pink ones are nice but i have my eckos in white/pink and pink looks a bit... "hi i'm tween"-ish!

your help would be much appreciated! (:

oh yeah, and here's munchkin.pudge (belly). do i look like those freaky kewpie dolls? gosh i think (and HOPE) not!

looking forward to reading your opinion before i duck out and buy a pair (to wear with jeans/shorts and stuff ... not stockings and a dress =p).

Xx.

shweta the black kewpie doll?

puhleeeez. i look a lot less creepy than kewpie dolls (or so i hope).

fyi, i had ZERO idea what kewpie dolls were until i googled them... apparently they were all the craze back in the day and kids always tried to win them at fairs. however, long gone are the days when families used to go to fairs and prizes like kewpie dolls were won. for goodness sake, i don't even think we have fairs anymore at all. carnivals? not sure if they're the same thing.

well, regardless of whether fairs are around or not, kewpies were apparently deemed to be "cute"... so being called a kewpie should be a compliment. nonetheless, i think they look pretty freaky.. just look at those freaky eyes (go on, google it -you know you want to!).

going to see jen, pv and jaz super soon (we're getting lunch) so i'll see if i can get a photo taken.. but just so you know, i'm wearing a lot of black -i didn't plan it that way. seriously.

maybe i could be a black kewpie doll?

hoping you're all well guys.

Xx.

by the way, marcus: the title totally suited the post =p i was not being dirty in any way shape or form (: ha! boys and their filthy minds.. we all know what you really think!

pasta down my shirt with cucumbers and porn.

pasta just fell down my shirt and i'm a bit paranoid about trying to find it to get it out (since i'm at work).

hmm, i shall make a brief dash to the toilet when i've finished eating and then head towards the plaza for a little while to combat my desperate need for some pants (work pants) -mine are all too big for me now (including the pair i'm currently wearing).

being back at work is good (: it feels like i haven't been here for ages (probably because i haven't). i better go finish eating then duck out for a spot of shopping (does that sound posh? whoops! my bad) -hopefully i find something that fits!

before i run away though, i would love for you guys to read this little article (in addition to this one). the first is super short but really quite amusing and the second one is just funny! wonder what the cucumbers are being used for ;) haha!

take care readers of the internet world.

Xx.

it really bugs me when my layout screws up

my blog layout is being really stupid and so, so, so screwy. with this in mind, i'm going to use a default one for now (minus the background -i like my background ... it's special because i made rainbows! lmao).

i'll eventually (when there's more time), fix it so that it's spiffy and awesome (or something along those lines).

oh did you know, statistics really sucks. i suck (so badly) at it! it just confuses the heck out of me and i have a stupid test that's due on monday (at 5pm) and i'm looking at it now VERY confused ): is there anyone who reads this who would be able to help me even understand the concepts? despite having done a course concerning stats, i feel very, very lost right now ):

ahhh my speakers keep making that annoying "interference" noise that means i should be getting a call or an sms or something (ANYTHING?! =p) but i haven't gotten anything yet... lame, lame, lameee!

alright, i'll change the blog super fast and get back to my lovely stats questions... then some groundwater tutes +assignment AND then... thesis stuff (not to mention an industrial training report).

oh gosh, i can feel it already.

i'm screwed this semester.

bye guys.

a drawing, potato chips and stuff.

Drawing because Neil can!

I should really start eating healty food. I had almost an entire bag of potato chips today (some chicken and some salt & vinegar flavoured). Now, I'm not talking one of those small bags that are "single serve". Heck nooo! I'm talking the family sized bags -I think they're made to have seven serves (possibly more?). Bad, bad, bad for my fat stores. Oh well, live life with no regrets right? =p

To be perfectly honest with you guys, I'm not sure what the "stuff" refers to in the blog title. Perhaps I should be? Regardless, I just wanted to type up another post to let you all know that I had an epiphany over the weekend and life is simply superb now (: Almost 100% -things would be a lot better if I wasn't flipping out about my final semester of undergraduate uni (for forever!).

Alright, I shall ask you guys a question since it's been too long!

Well, here goes.

What's your favourite day of the week? Provide reasons.

Mine would have to be Saturday. I shall explain why in an upcoming post (:

Hope you guys are living life to the limit and feeling awesome and amazing about yourselves and how things are!

Xx.

things always seem better in the morning (:

i had a moment of weakness last night but do not believe that i suck for it. i do not suck. being happy is amazing and awesome and rich, you're right: if we weren't ever sad, there would be nothing to compare the 'happiness-factor' against and people would think that being happy sucked. it doesnt. being happy is awesome. marcus, i'm so sorry about not being able to hang out when you were down here -but eventually we shall (: neil, karma is a butt-biting thing (i cut a lot of trees down in Sahar yesterday [AC reference =p] and i think my mood had something to do with it =0). mister jasemcface you are awesome! i can't wait till the next time we can hang out around a fireplace with guitars and drums and my video camera singing kumbaya or something along those lines and and and you can try to teach me guitar again =p a few have tried, none have succeeded!

what i'm trying to say is thank you for your nice comments guys.

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i woke up today and things felt better. i partially thank prashanthy for making me promise. i don't like breaking promises unless it's a matter of life or death (and even then, who knows? =p).

so, aaron carter is playing right now. do you think i am lame? well, too bad.

"I WANT CANDY!"

<3

haha.

alright, lots to do today. so much to catch up on -it's already week four at uni =0

stay awesome!

Xx.

a bit of a rant.

Just so you know, I'm not that girl in orange in the "swheat +unsw toastmasters" post's picture.

So, how are you all? Well, hopefully?

Yet again, it's been a while since my last (proper) post. Sometimes it feels like once I start getting back into the swing of things (regular posts) something happens in my real life that affects me in some way, shape or form (crazy amounts of uni work, sadness, extreme happiness -whatever) and I stop updating this blog. Well, it's either that or the fact that when I find myself with "free time", I end up doing things that have me away from the computer (reading, writing, practicing photography and sleeping -lots of sleeping).

I could apologise like I seem to do everytime the internet experiences a lack in my presence, but I think I'm over apologising. Does that sound too harsh? It wasn't meant to. I'm just tired of apologising for things that don't require an apology -just like the three word phrase "I love you", the word "sorry" (or other apologetic phrases) are fast losing their meaning in my life.

Wow, I don't want to sound like an emo kid. Really, I'm not. I've just been rethinking my life (a lot) lately and I've come to one sad realisation. I think I've shunned a lot of people in my life over the past three years, thinking that I was doing the right thing. I put my confidence in people, but lately, I've lost that confidence.

Just so you know, this blog isn't going to make any more sense. I'm not sure if it's made any sense until now but I get the feeling that it's going to start making less and less sense. So, if you aren't up for reading a whole lot of mindless blabber and rambling, please, stop reading now.

Alright. Getting back to it now. I'm trying to express my thoughts in the most coherent way possible but I feel so angry, sad, confused and downright frustrated right now. I shouldn't be feeling any of these, except maybe confused -as a result of uni, nothing more.

Life is strange. For so long, everything feels great. Then, in a moment, it feels like everything's being ripped away from underneath your feet. It seems as if the one thing that made you feel as if you could do anything and everything; the feeling that caused you to soar high in the sky makes you feel sad. It feels as if that one thing that made you feel invincible has suddenly become your greatest weakness. Although, I suppose, it has always been your weakness. After all, isn't your happiness usually based on a thought; perhaps it's a single idea, person or thing? If that foundation is destroyed, then doesn't that mean your happiness begins to deterioriate?

I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here. I guess it's just that lately, I've been feeling awful for turning my back on my friends. I feel so guilty. It's awful. I haven't been a bad person; I just wish I had prioritised correctly.

Does this make me seem bad? I know it probably does.

I think I just miss things being the way they used to be. I miss being a kid. I miss being able to make friends so easly, being able to see another child in the park and being able to play with them as 'best friends' after a few short minutes. Life just feels so complicated these days. I'm tired of growing up.

There's so much more I want to say, but I don't want to say it all in such a public place because I don't want my friends (who read this) to worry about me. I know I'll be alright, this is just a bump in the road. I really hate these bumps because when I'm trying to face them, they feel like mountains. When I reach the other side however, I'll feel like it was merely a molehill. How lame.

// END RANT.

I hope to get around to reading your blog posts soon. There just aren't enough hours in a day and I need to get serious about my thesis -submission is in two months and I feel like I've done nothing. At this rate, I might as well drop out of uni. Bah, just need some focus and motivation. I just need to push the other junk out of my mind and concentrate on the important things in life.

I suppose a good reward is the trip at the end of this year. I'm really looking forward to leaving Australia! Then, when I come back, travelling either a) overseas (again), b) QLD or c) some coast in NSW (it will depend on Irene =p, she has tickets to some coast or another). Maybe that's what I should work towards (:

Anyway. I think that's all I can be bothered typing tonight.

Stay safe guys.

Xx.